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YOU GUYS! I've been gone for way to long, and I'm super, super sorry about it! But I'm back in action and I hope you guys are ready. There'll be more soon (:

Review: Eclipse Soundtrack

The Eclipse Soundtrack. It's a terrific soundtrack. Most of the songs on this soundtrack has this hard ass vibe that makes you want to throw on your leather jacket and throw your fist in the air, and take advantage of your youth. It has upbeat songs you'd just want to get up and dance to, music you'd want to listen to while sharing an intimate moment with a loved one, and music you'd simply want to cry to. The soundtrack has so many emotions thrown at you. The melodies and lyrics engulfs you and takes over you, and before you know it, you're sitting there wondering what you just did for the last hour and a half. I get a lost feeling -sometimes also a yearning- while listening to one of the songs off the album, and the feeling lingers until many hours later.

For a dancing song, I'd go with "Ours" by The Bravery. From the beginning to the end, the song gives you the influence of wanting to go out and get high off the idea that you're young and you're entitled to go party hard & make the best of it. The opening lyrics, "After tonight, who knows where we'll be tomorrow/What if we're never here again?" gets your attention quickly, and the songs lets you know that this time is OURS.

"Let's Get Lost" by Beck and the Bat for Lashes. The song that makes me want to take my lover by the hand and runaway. It influences you to come up with so many ideas and fantasies in your head. To just have a good time.

The song "My Love" by Sia is moving, touching, and always makes my heart heavy. The metronome that takes its time for the lyrics to seep in your thoughts... the way she sings it. I can't decipher the words due to her very loose pronunciation, and these qualities are what makes this song one of the best love songs I've heard in a long time. I always feel like I should be crying when this song comes on, just because I'm a sucker for love.

If you haven't heard the soundtrack yet, you should really change that. Even if you're not into the Twilight scene, these songs will move you. Isn't that a wonder? :)

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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a tad relieved

Ah, yes.
I feel a little bit kick ass.
I, Darriea Breejea, took a little pride from my last post, Procrastination. I wanted to own up to my words & ranting, so I actually did my math. And I hit three different sections. Yes, I was motivated. :D

So, did I motivate you today?

Isn't that a wonder? :)

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Procrastination.

Here I am, sitting.
I'm supposed to be doing my summer math homework.
I haven't even touched it today.

Here I am, sitting, surfing the web.
I'm supposed to be cleaning my room.
Even though I did yesterday, it's not quite finished.

Here I am, sitting, surfing the web, chatting with friends.
I'm supposed to be washing my dishes from lunch.
I haven't even put them in the sink.

Here I am, sitting, surfing the web, chatting with friends, PROCRASTINATING.
& it's a damn shame.


Why do so many people chose to procrastinate? Because we're lazy, because we don't want to do any work, because we don't want to get ahead in life? We do it so many times, and we know the consequences, so why keep doing it? I'm sure many people don't get a thrill out of the anxiety or stress tied to procrastination? As Edward Young said, “Procrastination is the thief of time.” - (1683-1765) Think about that. Well, I'm going to go stop procrastinating and begin my math. Isn't that a wonder?

Making Summer Count; Day Thirty Eight

Ok, I'm in higher spirits than I was before. That means more frequent posting!

Today I packed for a six day, five night trip to Florida. :) I'm leaving Wednesday, and today I got crazy excited. For the first time. Haha. I packed probably four outfits too many and 7 pairs of underwear too many. Well, actually, you can't have too many pairs of underwear. :) Either way, my suitcase is full, and I'm not even finished packing! Well, that's what happens when you're a girl like me.

I finished reading Dear John a couple of weeks ago. It was good... I liked it, except for the fact that I was majorly depressed when I finished it. It was sweet, granted, but still saddening. The part that really hit me was Johns' fathers' death. Only seven people attended the funeral, including John. "It broke my heart-absolutely broke it into a million pieces-that in all the world, only these people had seen the worthiness of my dad." That so depressing.

Savannah also had a lot of inspiring, and honest outlooks about life. For example, when she was talking about passions. She says," The saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last."

She also had a very effective passage about struggles during hard times. She says, "When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through." That's so deep, and ever since I read that paragraph, I've been doing that. It helps.

Have a good night, everyone. I still need to get ready for Florida! :) Isn't that a wonder?

Making Summer Count; Day Eighteen - Twenty Two

Sorry it's been so long that I've posted.

I've spent most of the time at home... I've been watching TV, working on the Dream Journal. Nothing super major to talk about. :) Today I went to a pool party, though. It was really fun. I hope everyone's having a great summer, though!

Making Summer Count; Day Seventeen

FUNN... Today I watched an old movie that I loved growing up, Little Shop of Horrors. It was fantastic. :D But I think I'm coming down with something, which isn't fantastic. :(

THAT'S not a wonder... Is it?

Making Summer Count; Day Fifteen and Sixteen

AH, I can't even begin to remember yesterday. Sorry, I know THAT'S disappointment.

Today isn't much to tell, though, either. I'm working on this new project- my dream journal. It's basically a book of all my aspirations. It's fun making it.

But I'm watching the MTV Music Awards now. Isn't that a wonder?

Making Summer Count; Day Fourteen

Today was pretty good. It was my Grandmothers birthday so we went out to lunch for her at a sushi bar. Isn't that a wonder?

Making Summer Count; Day Thirteen

Hello! :) This segment is a teenager now. :) The day was good. It started for me when my mom and I went to Wal-Mart. We bought waffles- always a good catch! She also bought me a fish net. Which I'm so happy to have. I got to clean my fish bowl really well. My fish look happier. Does fish look happier? They're swimming around a lot more. They look like they're having fun. I love dear Mercutio and Poseidon, my two beta fish.

ALSO! Guess who has two fans on LOOKBOOK. Me. : ] Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Making Summer Count; Day Twelve

It's so hard to post sometimes, because I choose to post late at night... And by the time I post, I can't actually remember the morning. So I have to really, really search my memory to give you guys an accurate review of my day. Gosh. Well, that's how it's going to be, because I'm not changing my ways. :]

Okay, my mom bought me this new book yesterday, Dancing in the Fire. It's set in 19th century Paris- specifically, the Paris Opera House. There's a little ballerina. Her name is Sylvie. I'm not extremely far in the book, but I'm far enough to know she's finally starting to have the life she's always dreamed as far as ballet, but now it's only going downhill because of the war with Prussia. It seems really good!

If you don't know, I'm in love with the 19th century. I love the art, the clothes, the whole essence. It's my favorite time period! Well, 1800s-1930s. (My second favorite is when the dinosaurs existed. :) ) And it isn't only the 19th century America, but world-wide. It was lovely. I guess that's a suckish time period for me to like, though. Because I'm black, and that's the time period during slaves. I've never really thought about the 19th century like that until I was talking to a friend earlier, and she was like, "I hope you don't like 19th century AMERICA." I knew what she was implying immediately, but still... It was kind of a shock. I wasn't expecting that, because whenever I daydreamed about the 19th century, slavery never came up. If I'm honest, I never daydreamed about southern America. It was always New York, or England, or France... I won't let this little oil spill over my dream, though. And that's the snag, you know? Many times, I would have a really cool thought, aspiration, image going for me in my head. I'd be really into it, the thought. It'd have the tiniest embellishments of a bigger beauty, until someone comes around and says something to me that'd ruin it all. The grandeur of the dream would be crushed, and I'd forever rue the moment I revealed my personal dreams. Somethings you should keep to yourself.

I'm also really into ballerinas! Every time I go to see a ballet, during the whole performance I wonder how different my life would be if I'd stuck to ballet. The girls who do it still are so beautiful, and graceful, and elegant. They're wonderful to watch. :] I think I'm actually going to purchase a tutu. Don't make me regret telling you guys that. Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Making Summer Count; Day Eleven

For the past three days, I've been listening to this group on Youtube nonstop! They're called the Midnight Beast, and you should really check them out! I really like their videos, "Lez Be Friends", "Tik Tok Ke$ha Parody", XXXMAS BUDDIES... (How to get a xmas....) (Parody)", and "Friends for Never." They're very addicting.

Today was really good. I definitely made it count... Firstly, since I've changed my sleeping pattern to waking up around 10, I haven't been eating an actual breakfast. I feel it's too late for breakfast. So instead I've been eating pizza. BUT TODAY! I made me waffles and eggs. :] Purely delicious.

Secondly, I actually got summer math homework done. It really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. We have over 600 problems to do, I think. I haven't really counted, but that's what I've been told. We have to do all the evens of the first two chapters... oh, the joy. My cool friends have decided to have study sessions at Starbucks. We'll work on math. It's a really good idea. Working on math with others so that if you have any questions, someone will be there to answer. We've all agreed that we should have at least some problems done before our first meeting, so that we can get as many questions answered as we can. I'm on the first section of the chapter and I already have questions. :P

Thirdly, I finally got around to watching Dear John. Late, I know. :P But now that I've watched the movie, I can read the book. I wanted to watch the movie before I read the book so that the movie wouldn't suck to me. I knew the book was going to be good regardless. It's a Nicholas Sparks book. I wasn't too sure about the movie, though. I personally think The Notebook will forever be his best, but I lot of people liked the Last Song and Dear John. I've never read a book by him, but I plan to. I have The Notebook and Dear John. I would have been read The Notebook, but I haven't seen it all the way through yet. I KNOW. I'm so late, it's ridiculous. :P Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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To see the Midnight Beast: http://www.youtube.com/user/THEMIDNIGHTBEAST

UPDATES IN THE MEDIA

Hey! Two posts in one day! Crazy, right?

I just wanted to let you know that today I was brainstorming Youtube ideas! As some of you might know, I have a Youtube channel. But it's a major fail at the moment, so I'm starting new. I'm going to start filming the video within the next two days, so the video should be up soon. When it's uploaded I'll post a link HERE. Watch out for it!

Also, I want a lot more hype for LOOKBOOK, so I'm doing another photo shoot soon. Any suggestions, anyone?

Making Summer Count; Day Ten

On the tenth day ...

Hello! Welcome back! Today was a good one. :) I like guys. Is that enough to tell you? No? Welllllll, today I video chatted my mate for the very first time. Get it? I said "mate" because he's English. haha... ha... ha? Anyways, it was really fun. I feel like we're on a new level of friendship. :D

Secondly, I hung out for hours at my mom's best friend's house. It was really fun, as lame as it sounds. The friend has a cousin, Curtis, and he's a comedian. The two together? Comical. :] It's great to know such fantastic people! I'm blessed. : ] Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Making Summer Count; Day Nine

The ninth day already. I'm losing track of time.

Today was pretty good, but short lived. I woke up at 9:30, which is late for me considering that I wake up at around 8. I felt deprived of precious daylight. I went downstairs to fix me waffles and pizza, then spent about an hour watching mindless cartoons. Then I couldn't take it anymore, so I started vacuuming my room. Yes, vacuuming. I knew that later on in the day, my grandmother was having a barbeque for my cousinn - she's flown down from New York. What I didn't know is that later was actually sooner, and before I knew it, my mom was telling me to get dressed. I quickly put on denim capris with a vintage Elmo tank top, and my mom and I headed out the door on our way.

The event itself was pretty good. Big props to my grandmother for the food. :) It would have been SO much better, though, if the guest of honor showed up on time... How in the HELL do you show up THREE whole HOURS late to your own shindig?! That's just not right. & I felt really bad for my grandmother, because she was very upset. She went through all this trouble making this party great for my cousin. The fact that she was very upset made my HIGHLY upset. I tried to help as much as I could with the party, but when the guest of honor showed up, I had to step into another area. That changed my whole mood. : / But besides that, I had fun at the party. I saw a lot of loving family members, and I enjoyed myself ... even though I was the only teenager there.

I have good news. :] I'm a LOOKBOOK.nu member! I posted links to the right

-- > Check me out! Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Making Summer Count; Day Eight

Today was a kickass day. :D I definitely feel a lot better. Better than I have in a few weeks. I'm upbeat. Get ready to learn why!

Mostly, I think I just needed something to do with my life- something that I wanted to do. Something that'd make me feel awesome. :) and I found it. Today, I took a few hours away from the computer, and my mom & I did something different than what we usually do. We set up a little photo shoot, and she took tons of pictures of me. :) That really bumped up my confidence and my mood. It really helped. I feel like a completely new person! So the next time you're kind of in a funk, try this antidote! Put on your favorite t-shirt or those cool new sunglasses you just bought, and take a few pictures of yourself. It's worth a shot!

Isn't that a wonder?

Have fun you guys, and enjoy life.

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Making Summer Count; Day Six and Seven

I've been really lazy the past two days. Well, not really lazy... just emotionally distressed. Bear with me. It's not like... well, I'm not extremely depressed or anything. I'm just down.- not generally happy. There has been a few points of joy in life- as described in recent posts, but I don't feel happy like I usually do. So that's that.

Yesterday I rediscovered the cool facts about Black Widows. I can't believe the females eat the males after they get pregnant... SOBs. :) Oh, and James Dean seem to be the topic of the day. I promise you, I listened to three different songs today that discussed him.

That's all for today. :( Isn't that a wonder?

Making Summer Count; Day Five

Today was a bum out kind of day. I stayed in the house for the most part. The only time I did go out is when I went to take a few still shots of the clouds and the grass. I ended up also taking a few pictures of a bumble bee buzzing around, an alert squirrel, and a chirping birdie. :)

Between the hours of 9 and 11 AM, I drew a picture of a lemur. I know, a very random thing to draw, but I saw a picture of one yesterday. Eyes of a lemur are very cool. They're exciting and bright and alluring. They are very powerful. So I drew a picture of one, and I tried to capture the unique beauty of their eyes. I think that lemurs are becoming my favorite animal. I have the urge to draw more pictures of them. I used the picture above as a guide.

When I was finished with that, I did the most selfless thing I've done in a while. I signed up to be a volunteer at the Center for the Visually Impaired. I've never actually stepped foot inside the place, but I've seen videos they've posted on YouTube. I really like what the company stands for. In life I've met a lot of assholes who think that people with disabilities such as blindness or being deaf are of lesser value than people without disabilities, and that's a horrible way to think. I believe that we're all the same. Granted, our Saviour has designed us in different forms with different patterns, but we are all the same. No person comes above or below the next. Anyways, I'm really excited about volunteering at the center. I'll be doing things like visiting blind people's home to help them with laundry, cook, or read them a book; I'll make telephone calls to people in need just so they could have a companion; I'll get to work with preschool children at the daycare; I'll take photos of special events that we have to get the word out about us; and lastly -the most exciting thing- I'll be partnered up with a buddy my age to serve as a playmate. This all will be really fun. I'm supposed to get notified soon about an upcoming orientation. I hope this goes well. My fingers are crossed. :)

Towards the end of today, I realized that I love people astronomically. (I love that word.) My family, my friends... I'm so glad that we were created with a big enough heart to give love to the whole world. Isn't that a wonder?

Enjoy life, loves. :)

Making Summer Count; Day Four

Today, a lot happened. Some of it was really exciting, some was heart wrenching, and some? Some isn't even worth the tale.

This morning, I woke up to my mom bursting in my room to tell me to get up. She wanted to get to the DDS early to get my permit. This was an event I was VERY excited about... until I physically got in the car and my mom began driving. I was NOT prepared to take the test. I didn't feel like I studied enough, so I chickened out. I asked my mom to turn around and take me home. When we got home, I immediately turned to the computer for comfort. I began to play FreeCell like I usually do, and I began to chat with a friend, Semere. I told him about my fears of taking the test, and he comforted me that everyone get scared about tests. He said that I should just knock it out of the park, and that's what I ended up doing. After a few more hours of studying, distracting myself with Facebook and FreeCell, and posting a post to my blog, I went back to the DDS. I ended up passing my permit test. :) Moral of the story? It's ok to be nervous about the steps of life, but you can't let your fears hold you back from doing the things you want to do. So the next time there's a daring move you want to take, take it. :) You can do it. I have faith in you!

Before I posted this morning, I learned something new. The subject today was clouds! They're a beautiful thing, don't you think? In the sky idly floating along... There's a website called Learn Something New Everyday. I'm new to lsned.com. Today was my first day reading a post, and the most recent one was about clouds. It basically retaught me what I learned in 5th grade, but I needed it. I looked over past posts, and if I keep up with this site, I'll learn about Greek mythology, clowns, Einstein, and much more! I want to be quite the intellectual. :)

Today, I also learned that it is possible for me to not have a panic attack over a guy. I'm actually really hurt right now. There's this guy that I really liked. You've heard of him, Paul. I almost said aloud that I loved him. At my birthday party, he nibbled my ear, and I thought that gesture from him was really special. I felt really, really EPIC! But then I found out today that that wasn't special at all, because he was at a party Sunday, and at the party he was kissing up on one of my dearest, dearest friends, and when he was done with her, his ass crawled over to the other two girls there! UGH! So, I don't feel special at all. That was heart wrenching. I thought I meant something special to him... Guess not. Well, I won't be hurt over this for long, though. Why would I want a guy like that? Am I just saying that, though? If he puts out his hand, will I take it? These questions are hard to answer like this. Now isn't THAT a wonder?

C'est la Vie. Good Night. :)

Making Summer Count; Day Three

Happy Belated Birthday to Me. :) Yesterday was my birthday, and I'm fifteen now! :) I enjoyed myself a bunch. I had lunch with my friend, Kailah, at the Hard Rock Cafe, we went shopping, I got a haircut, and I watched the season finale of my favorite show, 10 Things I Hate About You. :)

You know those birthdays when you don't feel different at all? Well, this year, I definitely feel different. I feel older and more mature and insightful and I feel like I'm starting to become the person I'm going to be. Now of course, this just didn't happen over night. I feel like I've been slowly leading up to this point for a while, and that my birthday was the day it hit me: I'm changing.

This haircut was definitely good for me. I can't stop touching my hair! It's cut in layers, so it's pixie-like, and I have a side bang. The new image is a big change that I've wanted for a while. I also got my mom to "inquire" about contacts, so let's hope that the inquiry goes well. Fingers crossed! Isn't that a wonder?

Tonight I'm going to post again about Day Four. Talk to you later!