- Stop Procrastinating. (Which is ALWAYS on my list. but NEVER gets fixed. This year will be different, though.)
- Be Confident and Bold Again. Say "Hey." when you see a hot guy. (All my confidence went down the drain in seventh grade, but all that is going to change.)
- Calm Your Temper. (Yeah, I'm very temperamental.)
- Grow healthier, better relationships. (with loved ones and unloved ones. :))
- Read the Bible daily. (Yes. I'm inspired to do greater things towards my religion.)
- Get things off your chest more. (That's probably why I'm so temperamental! I need to share with others how I feel so I won't go crazy. I mean, that's very unhealthy.)
- Relax! (My mind is constantly on over-drive. I have no idea of how to relax. I'll learn, though.)
- Cool the obessions! (We all know I'm prone to them. They take too much work and time, -but this might not happen-.)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Moi Du Jour
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Trouble with Eros Love? C'est la Vie.
Her post, "*SIGH*", taught me that there's four types of love. I wanted to do a little research, and I found more information on it. I didn't want to include Storge Love, because that one didn't seem to fit everything else I researched. You should look it up, though. It's always best to use more than one source.
- Agape (pronounced a-GAH-pay): the ultimate, paternal, unconditional love, such as God's love for mankind. It is pure, innocent, and everlasting. It is said that Platonic Love leads up to Agape. "Platonic love is love from the neck up." --Thyra Smater Winsolow.
- Philia: love that exists between close friends and siblings, such as Philadelphia, the city of brotherly love
- Eros: the love you have for your spouse. It includes sexual desire.
For her, nine times out of ten, she prefers a boy outside her race. (As for me, I'm more of a 6 out of ten. Yes, I am Black, and dear Tanner James is White.) And that is fine. Our family and friends have accepted that, and if they haven't, they are being quiet about it. Also, if they weren't, it wouldn't make a difference. We'll be attracted to who we're attracted to. Fortunately, she realizes that she has plenty of Philia and Agape love, but she wants Eros love. I told her that it's going to be difficult for us to get into a relationship with a white guy. I've accepted that, but I can't say the same for dear her. It saddens me every time to think of HER being sad and stuff. It hurts me really bad. So, for everyone out there who is getting headaches, growing worrisome, or becoming quite depressed my your crush or significant other, I am sorry. Very, very sorry, but C'est la Vie (French for "This is Life.") You aren't alone. Talk to those people who show their Agape and Philia Love for you.
Speaking of guys, my Gran, my mom, and I were in Hobby Lobby. Our cashier, this really cute guy with blonde hair and stubble on his chin, had a flower in his front pocket. He was rocking a flannel shirt, skinny jeans, and the apron that the employees wore. So, it took a great deal of my courage to compliment him and his flower. The way he said thanks led me to believe he wasn't truly thankful, but it was fine with me. It wasn't like I'd see him again. So, I looked him up and down, and licked my lips because I was afraid they were chapping. He witnessed such when he looked back up to tell me that his girlfriend gave it to him. He continues with a story about how his old one wilted up, and so she bought him a replacement. That cut me. I mean, why did I have to know he had a girlfriend?
And then just thirty minutes ago, I was here about to burst out of my skin. There was this guy, Conrad, that I used to know in seventh grade. He's really hot and really ripped. I adored him. I talked about him everyday, and I journaled about him everyday. That's when my friends should have known that I was prone to obsessions. A couple of days ago, I found him on Facebook. I added him and we were just chatting, which made my smile ginormous. We talked about what schools we go to now and everything was just peachy. We aren't talking anymore, because he had to go. But wow... <3.>
Also thirty minutes ago, I was talking to this junior, John**. I don't like him or anything, but I know a lot of people who thinks he's really hot. It's actually really pathetic to see the girls all over him. I'm not going to lie. There were a couple of days that I spent a class peroiod talking to him and his friend, but that isn't because I like him. I was bored with everyone else, and everyone likes something fresh and new. Since I didn't want anyone getting ideas, I would leave and go talk to my other friends or something. He's attractive and stuff, sure; but I'm too broken right now when it comes to boys.
There was a guy, Paul**, who is actually John's younger brother, that I liked a lot since seventh grade. He doesn't know this, but in the first week of school this year, he broke my heart. Bad. And ever since then, my love life has been a wreck. I don't like Paul now, because I'm too attracted to Tanner, but that kind of hurt me to the point where I can't healthily like a guy. I mean think about it. Remember when I mentioned my obsession with dear Conrad? Same thing applies here for Tanner.
Like I said, "C'est la Vie."
Isn't that a wonder?
*To check out Kennedy's Blog: http://kennedyscloset.blogspot.com/
Other sources: http://www.iep.utm.edu/love/#SH2a, http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=1006022711082
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Finals. Dovey Earrings. and Holiday Parties.
I hope everyone is having a great holiday season so far! For all who celebrate, Christmas is in one week! :) Today was the last day of the semester for me and my friends, and I'm so happy to be relieved of all of my educational duties for two weeks. Anyway, I bought my friends gifts such as Oreos or earrings (even one person received Ferrero Rocher chocolate truffles). It was fun receiving gifts myself. Kennedy, a bff, gave me these really cool-looking gold earrings with doves, peace symbols, and hearts. I know it sounds like way too much for an earring, but trust me, they are wonderful!
Last night, my grandmothers apartment had a Grand Opening/Holiday Extravaganza. I should have been studying, but instead, I went. Me and Gran were there for ten minutes before the party was over. Yes, shamelessly, we were late, but in a fashionable way. :) At first, I wasn't really feeling my attire. I looked like I was going to a funeral. But with a few lovely accessories, I was able to change up my mood. After the party was over, guest were still hanging out, and my grandmother started talking to Mr. Joseph Gargery. (That really isn't his name. If you've read "Great Expectations" by Charles Dickens, you'll know that Joe is a character. I only call our Joe that because I don't know his real last name, and I was reading the book while I met him.) That left me standing there awkwardly while Mr. Joseph Gargery flirted and stared openly at my Gran. I walked away with the excuse of "going to look at the tree", where I went to take pictures. Speaking of which, I actually took the picture of the ornament you see above. I'm thinking about joining Photo next year. While taking pics, I noticed a huge chocolate fountain. I just so happened to notice it at the time that the lady was dipping a strawberry, cheesecake, and brownie into it. Now, I'm not a big fan of chocolate, but I am of that! yumm. (: the lady let me take a tub of choclate home which is now sitting in my frigde...
'Tis all for now. Since I'm on break, I'll definetly post more that three times a week for the next two weeks. Isn't that a wonder?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Gedichte. Smiles. and Art Shows.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Alice. Me. Her Land. My Land.
In my case, that isn't the case. Two years ago, when I was in seventh grade, my school put on the Alice in Wonderland play. I was happy to get the part of the Mock Turtle. I had my very own scene in which I told my own story. I punched the line about the Tortoise well and received laughs. I made a new dance number and sang the song. The dance was such a big deal, other people wanted to join in and dance! The experience was really fun. I was able to practice after-school and work on my lines, I was able to get helpful constructive criticism, and I was able to make my own costume! This changed my outlook of the story. I began to truly cherish the Caterpillar, the Mad Hatter, the Knight, and even the Cheshire Cat. The story of the girl who went on a journey in a magical, mad world truly held interest to me.